Although I made the decision this past Tuesday, I needed to live with it for a couple days to make sure it was really what I wanted.
Doing a podcast is quite a lot of work. Ask anyone who's done it. With a few wonderful exceptions, it's fairly thankless work. In order to do it week in and week out you really must love doing it.
First I want to express my overwhelming gratitude.
To those readers here of A Yoga Coffee Outlook, thanks for all of the comments, email, skype chats, and phone calls. It's frightening and often embarrassing to write when things are not going well. You guys have been keeping me going in so many ways and feel a lot like family to me.
Listeners of the podcast, you guys really hung in there. Somehow we even increased the numbers to nearly 1000 listeners over the last two weeks. Chas and Elizabeth were willing to take on a bigger role... and barely got their feet wet. Liz and Ricardo gave up their free time and some good stories to help me keep the show alive. All proof that even strangers with different view points can sit down for an hour and share bits of their lives with each other. Which was the true spirit of the show.
The Podcasting community is such strong and supportive group of great people. Ray Iddings of Pink's Radio and Paulie B of Punky Radio both stepped up to be on the show. Geoff from the On Hold Podcast not only offered to be a guest host but has been a sympathetic ear and supporter of the show from day one. There are many others, too numerous to mention, who offered to hang out with me for a show or two. Even Bob Gentry who is likely the busiest guy on the Sunset Strip these days offered.
Everyones generosity in regards to the show forced me to evaluate the situation intensely. I'd feel terrible if after everyones efforts I still felt the way I do now... With Bobby's departure from the show, I don't love doing it anymore. I don't have it in me anymore. Every time I put the ridiculous headphones on I get into this battle with myself and it's just too difficult to do. So I will no longer be doing shows.
Clearly I need a blog break as well. So AYCO will go dark until November 16th... Coincidentally thats when the I-Pod contest is over. I'm not going into seclusion, I just won't be publicly posting. I will still be answering my e-mail and checking comments... Just no new posts. The podcast will cease to be available after November.
Thanks once more to everyone. I hope I haven't let anyone down.